How painful it was
Telling them you had no one in your life
Wishing I could tell them it was me
But knowing its not my place
I knew you wouldn't do anything
But that wasn't enough to quell
The deep heartache I felt
Watching her sit on you
And whisper in your ear.
The only thing to hold on to
Was the eye contact you were giving me
I felt like we were having a little conversation
You opening your eyes wide
Me taking the biggest sip of wine and trying
To look anywhere else
Told me you knew
Which should have been enough
To make me feel ok
And yet
When rob was leaving
I felt like crying
And she was telling me it was ok
To not be ok
And then you came up behind me
And I had to suck all the tears back up
So you wouldn't have a clue
But something tells me you did
Did you like it?
After
When I was asking you about it
Could you tell I was jealous?
Did it make you feel good?
Or did you enjoy it more with her feet in your lap
She is gorgeous
In a way
Much more than me
And she has lots to offer
I wouldn't blame you for wanting to
and me holding out for you
doesn't mean you have to return the favor
I hope you know this one is about you
Because I won't be able to say it to your face
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