I went back to the place where heartbreak goes to die
Your name is written in slander all over the bathroom walls
And 15 minutes later you show your face
The air sucked out of the room
Heart breaks all over again
From memories of when it cracked
If Haruki taught me anything
It was to always sit at the bar
And I am still learning that
I've stolen glasses before
I've snuck a handful of limes
Life is good in a way I can't describe
Won't be able to until its past
I dont think I really know anything
Only how much it hurts to relive it all
To be racked of air
To hurt so bad you can only laugh
To honestly wish you were dead
Because you've done so much damage
You stamped it out
By turning away
Actually, you didn't even stamp it out
You left it to burn and everything caught fire
Say something
Say anything
Or die
That's the rules
Say it all or nothing
Dont be a coward
You cant understand
How not misunderstood you are
You are tragically predictable
Just like everyone else
You're just good at pretending
Grabbing all the bullshit you can muster
I leave the dimly lit bar before you do and that is the worst thing you've ever done to me
I shrink in your presence but dream that I rip out your heart and eat it
you've lost so much time and you don't even know it
you'll never get back what you threw away
I will always remember how you broke me
and that is my greatest skill
because I put it all together again
and you are the one who will crumble in the end.
just because you sheltered yourself from damage
does not mean you get to miss the explosion.
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