In February I was mesmerizing
In November you told me so
In December you called me your tranquility
In January you went quiet
In February you no longer loved me
What a wild thing time can do
At once build up to something slowly and overtime
And in an instant, crush it down
Waves lapping
Turn into monsters of walls
Bearing all its weight
Just to destruct
And then the next moment
It's quiet
I'm turning round and round under the swell
My ears filled with sandy water
And my teeth crunching sickly
To be tossed out
Laid flat
Stripped of any sparkle
That once made me mesmerizing.
The sun beats down to dry me out and return my breath
Little inklings of water
Grab at my toes
waking me up
And it's scary to think
They are part of the same thing that hurt me
Love is risky as it shakes you out of good conscience and the only thing that can return it
Is more of the same love
Not same
Real and tried and true
I'll have to accept that it was never you who loved me
It was the idea that I could make you whole
Make you better
But you didn't give me a chance to
Because your crushing weight was too strong
Your mind too stubborn and lonely
To allow itself to be soft and open.
You liked that mine was laid bare on a plate
Like finger foods that you could eat
You tried to find holes in me
But the only holes to be found were gaps taken out by other people
That you could not replace
and so instead of trying you simply got up and left
but not before smashing that plate and spitting on its remains
and as soon as you leave you feel bad but feeling bad does nothing
to quell the ache you've made unless you do something about it
about it, you have done nothing
but left a scorned women
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